Up at an Early Hour This Morning Before My Sessions and came across these Quote Blocks on another page and they struck me, not because it was Ayn Rand and it conjured anything I had ever heard about her - but because these are Timeless Words and it Rang True to What It Means To... Continue Reading →
Learning To Play
I have been uncomfortable with "Playing" for most of my son's childhood. When he was a baby, it didn't seem to be a problem. Babies are easy. I can play with a baby because a lot of it is just letting them be and explore, and you get to smile big and talk a whole... Continue Reading →
I Moved Away from my Family, So I could Heal
It was both the hardest and easiest decision I ever made. My mother-in-law had just moved back to Canada and she asked me if I would ever consider living there, too. To her surprise (and my husbands), I didn't even think about it before I said "Yes, I would." There were a lot of valid... Continue Reading →
Before Your Body Is Sick
We have a few collective habits when it comes to disease; and that is to obsessively check our bodies for it, worry about it, research it, run huge campaigns for screenings and early diagnosis's, we diagnosis others in our heads and offer our opinions, we compare and contrast our physical bodies, health and well-being to... Continue Reading →
How I use Reiki
In August of 2014, I reached a turning point when I went to the emergency room thinking I could finally be having that heart attack I was so worried about, but it turned out to be one of my (then) frequently occurring panic attacks. They ran tests and nothing came back abnormal and... Continue Reading →
It is Not Who You Are – It is What Has Happened to You
Originally Written 2013 I think this has to be my mantra for awhile. So often..and by often I really mean all of the time, when I have a panic attack, mood swing, intense anger, my rational thinking brain is reduced to a hellish tunnel vision on what is wrong with me personally. It is... Continue Reading →
Rage Against the Machine
Originally Posted/Written 2013 That is probably not a very inventive title – I’m sure it’s been thought of before. But here I am claiming it for myself. I’m an angry girl. I believe my emotional self to be around 11. Only, I look back at myself at 11 and marvel at how “mature” I was.... Continue Reading →
Trust Fall
2014 I don’t know if I fit the qualifications to be a poster child for “Daddy Issues”, but I certainly have them, and they certainly affect my life and my relationships. I trust no one. And I don’t know if it counts that I say I trust certain people “as much as I can”. What... Continue Reading →
Battle Ship: Emotions Edition
For as much strategy as we put into our life and the way our days unfold; there is that possibility that something comes along that either derails plans or shatters expectations. There is a moment, smaller than the space of a breath, where something is decided in your brain. Are you in danger or otherwise... Continue Reading →
The Inner Critic and Toxic Shame: The Damaging Duo
I made the decision over two years ago to leave my hometown; putting roughly 364 miles between me and the first 31 years of my life. About a year in, I finally asked myself this question: “Why do I fucking hate myself so much!!??!?!” It was a violent hate. It was a condemning, condescending, vitriolic... Continue Reading →