Originally Written 2013 I think this has to be my mantra for awhile. So often..and by often I really mean all of the time, when I have a panic attack, mood swing, intense anger, my rational thinking brain is reduced to a hellish tunnel vision on what is wrong with me personally. It is... Continue Reading →
Rage Against the Machine
Originally Posted/Written 2013 That is probably not a very inventive title – I’m sure it’s been thought of before. But here I am claiming it for myself. I’m an angry girl. I believe my emotional self to be around 11. Only, I look back at myself at 11 and marvel at how “mature” I was.... Continue Reading →
Trust Fall
2014 I don’t know if I fit the qualifications to be a poster child for “Daddy Issues”, but I certainly have them, and they certainly affect my life and my relationships. I trust no one. And I don’t know if it counts that I say I trust certain people “as much as I can”. What... Continue Reading →
The Inner Critic and Toxic Shame: The Damaging Duo
I made the decision over two years ago to leave my hometown; putting roughly 364 miles between me and the first 31 years of my life. About a year in, I finally asked myself this question: “Why do I fucking hate myself so much!!??!?!” It was a violent hate. It was a condemning, condescending, vitriolic... Continue Reading →
Learning to Use My Voice
I am sure that if I said out loud to everybody I knew that I had trouble using my voice and communicating, there would be a few raised eyebrows and a couple "Yeah, um, okay...You have trouble speaking your mind." I've been known to have quite a sharp tongue, sometimes. I'm usually pretty quick with... Continue Reading →
Hello, I’m Rose and I am A Recovering Pisces
Does anybody else have, like, 800 Blogs, website starters, pages, ect scattered all over the interwebs or is it just me? I assign this scattered characteristic lovingly my Piscean Nature and I am learning day by day to tame it into the focus of what I want to create, with my words and with my... Continue Reading →